Dear Joseller,
Today I want to talk to you about a three letter mystical word called "GOD" . Most of the self help and spiritual writers shy away from this three letter word because they believe that they will lose readership. And this is to a good extent true. But there is one another big reason for all this. The Infinite cannot be expressed clearly by finite entities.
A few years back on a clear Saturday morning in the long walks that I have during the day there was an intense talk going on within me. I did not interfere with the thought process. I allowed my thoughts to take centre stage .I want to produce to you the exact talk which happened inside of those grey cells during that thirty minute walk. I hope you enjoy it.
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Does God exist? I used to get this thought occasionally. They did not bother me much but it did spring in, when I felt I needed His presence the most.. ...
Can God cry with me?
Can I really share my sorrows with Him?
Will He really listen to my dreams and ambitions?
Is He capable of creating all those miracles, which I have heard of in all the mythological stories?
All these questions would then gradually fade away with the setting sun...
I could not understand from where it came from , neither did I understand where all those thoughts went...Just like the rising sun I knew it came from a sacred place and like the setting sun vanished into oblivion...
But one of the remarkable things I noticed was it created in me a desire to know the Truth if at all there exists one...
But who would tell me the Truth?
A decade passed by and those thoughts did spring in occasionally...
Then my son was born...
I got the same thought again...
Does God exist...?
But, this time the thought stuck with me for a long time. It did not go away...maybe God wanted to convey something special through my son. I tried hard but the thought would not go away... It was soft, gentle like the breeze which blows once and you would want to feel it again and again... It came and went. It came and went.. It came and went...
At times I was in tears for no reason...
At times I used to feel very happy for no reason...
I could not prove my thought wrong for it was never trying to prove anything to me...
It just needed space, a tinge of love if I could call it that way...
Whenever I gave it space it used to settle in very nicely. I could feel its warmth its tenderness, that softness, which caressed me and I felt so good for no reason... I knew it was real... I could be blinded and yet I could recognize it. I could be tied yet I could feel the freedom... The more space I gave it the more it made me feel happy and relaxed.. A feeling I could never explain...
Does God exist?
I do not know whether God exists or not but I know that love exists, warmth exists, joy exists and a feeling of goodness does exist.. And all these exists within you..... All we have to do is to give that tender thought space to grow,, food to nourish and care to make it feel one with us...
So do gardens exist in deserts?
I do not know... But I know that I have seen one in ever-green cities, villages where they take pains to plant the seed, water the soil and mow the field... Gardens do exist if you reserve a space for them.. Fresh flowers do blossom where the garden is well taken care of...
So does God exist?
I think He does.... Maybe we never reserved any space for Him. We wanted him to change our life but we never made an attempt to change our thoughts towards Him. We had belittled the word God just like we had belitted our lifes. We had a very narrow vision of God just like we had a narrow vision of our own life... We thought some intelligent teacher or scientist would answer our questions whether God exists or not...
No one really taught me that God is a feeling. That He is not an object. I was made to think that He was an object and that once I see Him or hear Him I can then feel Him... That was what I was taught... I was never taught that I could first make an attempt to feel the things which He stood for and in doing so I could see Him or hear Him.. God stood for warmth, unconditional love,, joy and peace. He had planted all those seeds within me. I had only to reserve a small space within me, sprinkle those seeds, water it and then watch as it blossomed into full grown beautiful flowers. Then all that I needed to do was to open that beautiful garden to the whole world...And then God will come and every other super natural power which I never dreamt of would present itself ....
So does God exist Joseller?
Perhaps we all tried to find Him in an object, a temple,church or mosque instead of experiencing Him. Perhaps He got so frightened of our search, of our attempt to trace Him in all the so called religious structures, rituals and dogmas that He ran away and hid himself in a tiny space within You....
I found God whenever I needed to...
I lost Him when I found myself...
I traced him back when I lost my senses again....
In a way He was always within me....
I could never find Him but I could always feel for Him.....
God exists .... In the space you create for Him. You could say that He exists within you if you create that space within you. You could say that He exists outside of you if you create that space outside of you in the external world. .. Either way He exists. In the former He exists in your feeling and in the latter He exists as a feeling, which has been manifested into an object... It is only a matter of perception. If you look at the object and miss the feeling you miss God. If you catch the feeling you take God home.. It is simple..
God exists because feelings exists.... love exists and You exist....
thanks the secret teacher, for your inspiring message:)
GOD REALLY EXISTS ....
his with me.
his with all of as...
just be always open... (the bar?) joking :)
